Cool, I Don't Care

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I have always cared too much, you name it, I cared and connected to it. The days of moving through life with my emotions tugging at my every turn left me exhausted to say the least.

I have always wanted to “not care,” translation: I didn’t want to feel so deeply. So in summation, I am finally getting to this point in my life, the not caring point, and it feels liberating to not have your emotions run your life.

I still care, but I don’t emotionally connect at that deep level anymore and I LOVE IT! Don’t get me wrong, there are still things that stay with me longer then they should, (letting go, and caring, can be synonymous), but that separation between self and others is wonderful. It leaves so much more space for connecting to myself, to the world, and to the moment. I can listen, empathize, comfort, and be there for others, but I no longer take that shit home.

I am also at that stage in my life where self-confidence trumps caring about what others think, and in turn, I will do what I have to do for me, without apologies. And if that sounds selfish,

well, I truly don’t care. -tM

Perfectly Not Perfect?

“Perfectionism is an excuse of being insecure.” -Paul Rudd

I was watching Actors Roundtable a few weeks back when someone quoted Paul Rudd and it made me think about perfectionism in its entirety.

Perfectionism may start out as the above, and it may continue to show its face in such form throughout ones life depending on ones approach. However perfectionism can also be about aesthetics especially in design. It can also mean practice to master an art or subject that one is passionate about.

I guess I realized that in some cases yes, perfectionism has been about hiding my insecurities, yet in other cases it had/has nothing to do with insecurity.

I think it all comes down to this: setting high standards for oneself is totally acceptable, it is what you do with those high standards that opens up the possibility of insecurity that is driven by perfectionism. If you are constantly disappointed and blaming yourself for being less then perfect, well then, I am in total agreement with the statement above.

At the end of the day it all comes down to perspective and approach, but then again, maybe I am not a true bona fide type A perfectionist then.

What are your thoughts on Perfectionism? Do you agree with the statement above? -tM